The walls I've built around me
Have made fun of my loneliness
And those from whom I've taken all the peace
Have grown away from home
My kids have flown away with their own thoughts
They have refused my rotten love
They have stopped believing
In my... well-intentioned lies
I have nobody to hear my shouts
And to witness my instability
I am watching the end of my life
And forgetting my last prayers
I don't accept help from anyone
'Cause I risk to make my life a little better
I just want to follow the calvary
I've chosen to pay debts from a past life
Life made me
Build walls instead of bridges
I was strong when I should have been weak
I have cried, now I sleep
Life made me
Build walls instead of bridges
I was weak
And I aged fifteen years each winter I lived
I hide myself
So I don't cross paths
With close ones of my past
It hurts to realize that
Now I am the stranger
The last news I've heard
Now are memories
I've hurt those who once
Foretold my future
I've ignored those bloody warnings
I like the feeling of warm water
It brings my fetal memories to life
And I travel to a time when I
Don't have to take care of myself
I despise the idea of becoming
A mirror of my own mother
I bear an eternal guilt
And don't forgive anyone