It's all in me like an aching lump
A cancer growing into a beast
Distorting truth and feeding lies
Like sun and water to faded plant
Sometimes I long for the misery
Sometimes I crawl through the mud
Silly games to feel left behind
Masturbation in agony
Waiting and wandering x2
Take a look at myself as a victim
It's hard not to laugh in despice
Why do I do the things I do
I hate myself and i want to
Waiting and wandering x4