I'm still stressin but all in all I maintain
And I'm just tryna live takin it day by day
And whatever comes my way no matter what the extreme
I'ma never let it come inbetween me and my dream
I'm still pushin son, still strivin workin my 9 to 5 and happy to be alive
My daughter she's now five and man is she a jewel
She's just about to be starting her first year of school
And I can't believe how fast time passes when sand's trickling through the hands of the hour glass
It's another year gone by a new century a new millennium
And I wonder what lies ahead of me
Was this music shit really meant to be or am I just chasing a dream that's unreal and just a fantasy
But the fact is the musical genes been passed down through my family so how can they be mad at me
I'm just going where my heart takes me and I know they really love me but sometimes it's like they hate me
And I don't want to have any regrets mom and dad for crying out loud I'm the only son y'all had
I'ma sail that ocean til I find that peace
And keep looking til I find what I'm tryna reach
I got things on my mind that I'm dying to teach
And if you listen we can make a mission complete
I'ma sail that ocean til I find that peace
And keep searching til I find what I'm tryna reach
So many things on my mind that I'm dyin to teach
I won't stop til my minds a peace I'm almost there
A lotta people must think jess is depressed and my life's gotta be one heck of a mess but the truth is
Man I'm blessed with family and friends and a woman that I love to death
And lately our love's been put to the test but somehow we stuck it out and through it all we progressed
And I'm sorry if you ever felt neglected or disrespected I swear to god it was never intended
And even though I had a child by another girl
You were still willing to let it be a part of your world
And for that I give you mad respect you're my life and I'ma make you my wife and promise you paradise
Cause loving you's been like a dream come true
All I see in my future is me and you
And a family with lots of love, hopes and dreams and a palace big enough for a king and a queen
I'ma sail that ocean til I find that peace
And keep looking til I find what I'm tryna reach
I got things on my mind that I'm dying to teach
And if you listen we can make a mission complete
I'ma sail that ocean til I find that peace
And keep searching til I find what I'm tryna reach
So many things on my mind that I'm dyin to teach
I won't stop til my minds a peace I'm almost there
Dad's stressing me about a better job and my fear in destiny
And questioning me about god and I wonder about the after life
I'm kinda scared cause I keep making that sacrificed and put god first in my life
I used to only pray when I was troubled or when I needed help or when I was hurt or when I struggled but nowadays
I count the ways that I'm blessed being able to walk to being able to take a breath
Cause you know life ain't shit to fool with
You see the changes and the strangers and people you went to school with
There's insane people that you used to be cool with
But last time you seen them they were caught up in some bullshit for not being the parents that their children need
And once promising athletes who smoked too much weed and some others who didn't even know they had another seed
Get ya head where it needs to be
Ya feel me cause if not we'll all self destruct
Life's like a big gamble and sooner or later ya outta luck
Challenge you to be better then what you are today were so close yet so far away
I'ma sail that ocean til I find that peace
And keep looking til I find what I'm tryna reach
I got things on my mind that I'm dying to teach
And if you listen we can make a mission complete
I'ma sail that ocean til I find that peace
And keep searching til I find what I'm tryna reach
So many things on my mind that I'm dyin to teach
I won't stop til my minds a peace I'm almost there