"And I'm sorry I had a fucking mental breakdown, how many times could you... could you be normal if someone disrespected your dead father every chance they got?"
All This (all this)... I can't remeber your face... All this (all this)... No one can take your place... All this (all this)... I can't remeber your face... All this pain and animosity...
It's not everyday I get to sit around and chat, sit down and think, maybe even talk about it. That shit just drives me crazy, fuckin' me up. I'm outta luck like a slut with nobody to fuck. Somebody talk to me, hear me out, lend me an ear before I lose it on society and do it so violently. Fearer of fear, hands sweaty, losin' my breath, I'm sittin' with death, somebody sittin' on my chest. Best remedy's revenge on people who wouldn't listen, cheeks glistenin' cuz I'm cryin', my vision is so violent. Didn't worry cuz I'm losin' it, abusin' anybody that's confusin this with lyin' or me tryin' to get attention. Sention on my mind, all I think about is dyin', In spite of me livin' in Hell, breakin' me down. Outta touch with reality, fuck it I'm out. Everybody in this motha fucka's hearin me now...
I don't wanna lose you, but I lost you! I Cant Remeber your face. Never gonna let go, never gonna back down. No One Can take your place. Why did you leave? Where did you go? I dont know, why did you just go away? And Leave me here with All this pain and animosity?
I'm so lost without my loved ones, can't seem to let go. Why do I keep breathin', does God want me to die slow? On the edge I stand lookin' at the passed-on, wondering how long I'm allowed to carry on. So many left that was just too close. At times I feel all alone and I just can't cope. Why did they have to go? Why did they have to leave? If it's not family then it's the homie from the streets. My mind says not to take that shit, but I gotta stay strong for the sake of my kids. How close does the soul gotta get to make you wanna slit your wrists after they heart quits? Its so hard when you lose in life but even harder to recover, especially when memories start to smother. You can't run so just take that pain, cause I'mma always hold on to your name, rememberin...
I don't wanna lose you, but I lost you! I Cant Remeber your face. Never gonna let go, never gonna back down. No One Can take your place. Why did you leave? Where did you go? I dont know, why did you just go away? And Leave me here with All this pain and animosity?
It's everyday that the anger seems to be killing me off. It's kinda nice to have a chance to talk, or rather have you listen to me. You always listen to me no matter what state of mind my epidemy visited. You were there for me even when I said that I was outta my mind. You were the one that told me give it some time and I would find that I could put the peices back together again. You were the one that trusted in me 'til the end. I can't pretend that I never had faith in you, I was only afraid. I knew what was going on, but didn't know what to say. I was so young, feelin' like my soul was torn. Coming to grips with the fact you ain't comin' home no more. All this madness, and all this pain made something break inside my brain. And all this hate and all this time made me realign my mind and I find that...
I don't wanna lose you, but I lost you! I Cant Remeber your face Never gonna let go, never gonna back down No One Can take your place Why did you leave? where did you go? I dont know, why did you just go away And Leave me here with All this pain and animosity?