Yeah, growin' up we never knew what we was in for
Got the devil pokin' at you with his pitchfork
Thinkin' you be on 'em but you swore and now you piss poor
Plus you got a bunch of kids you got to fend for
Baby food and in shorts
Ain't no route to when you livin' life that you don't enjoy
You feel it jumpin' off the tenth floor
At ya 9 to 5, shoulda been the years that you been import
Injured, I'm just tryin' to vent lord
My lady sick as fuck, I'll never get her insured
People at the hospital treated us like trash
No cash for the bills, no cheddar pay the vent on
I'm trynna ride us to the benchmark
But its harder, now the drama in my life I gotta endure
Least I'm not up in the pin for
Somethin' that I did as a kid but remember that I mentored
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Lost in the world, trynna find a way
Caught in the flames when the fires came
Darkness I'm placed in 'em by the days
I'm finna look up in the sky and pray and I beg
God, don't strike me down
God, don't strike me down
God, don't strike me down
If this my life, show me how to ride it out
Ain't no bitches any peaches or no palm trees
Strong arm dollar piece like it's beyond reach
Struggle since the day you had a heartbeat
Ten family members packed in an apartment like they sardines
Thought I had a Oz beat
Newborn baby covered straight up in a car seat
And trees are livin' like the Cosbys, are over when the
Homies that you grow up with are murderers and car thieves
Also on the corner in the harsh heat
Buyin' dirtier in the car when you overhand
Cuff you on the concrete
Said they got a warrior involved and then stole my credit card
The number of my homies gunnin' so what daunt me
Was were Hennessy my name up on the
We put our glasses off of them and that's a rock beach
Gettin' drunk, geeked up, singin' off key we
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God please forgive me
I had so much evil in me
As a teen and then we
Turned into grown men with no men to teach me
How to get rid of my demons
It seemed to send me
Further away from your spirit, I keep descending
And I keep befriending
The wrong people to be depending
Off of positive energy but I keep extending
My hand out, family condemning
And my lease appending
As I pray to you
I try to walk a straight line but the rope that's underneath my feet is flimsy
But I promise if I fall off, I'll keep attempting
And I know you heard that a hundred times, I keep on sinning
Been a loser all my life so it's hard envisioning me winning
In the name of Jesus, amen, I pray, I hope my life'll have a peaceful ending
Cause I'm