Even if I knew which way the wind was blowing
Even if I knew this road would lead me home
Even if I knew for once where I was going
I'm lost out here without you
Rocking the baby by that window there
Planting tomatoes in the yard
Naked by the mirror putting up your hair
Baby, it's hard
When the kids came to see you for the last time
I told them not to bring the children
The husbands, or the wife
I said, "Just the blood this time. Just the blood"
They asked to be alone with you
So I left them alone, but I didn't go far
They said, "Has he been drinking again?
He stumbled at the door
He can't take care of himself, Mama
We can't do this anymore"
You said, "Hush up, children
Let me breathe
I've been listening to you all your life
Are they hungry, are they sick?
What is it they need?
Now it's your turn to listen to me
"I was young when we met
And afraid of the world
Now it's he who's afraid
And I'm leaving
"Make sure he sleeps in his bed at night
Don't let him sleep in that chair
If he holds out his hand to you, hold it tight
If that makes you uncomfortable
Or if it embarrasses you
I don't care"
Even if I knew which way the wind was blowing
Even if I knew this road would lead me home
Even if I knew for once where I was going
I'm lost out here
Baby, I'm lost out here
I'm lost out here without you