I will never be first in anything for you
But I like when you fool me
And I know, you’ll replace me, there’s an opening
Resentful and insecure?
I think it’s just reality
Running out of control
So tired, my conscience is full
I’m overwhelmed, a future I can’t behold
And even though I tried
You know I can’t deny
I just can’t stop looking up who you are
I buy in, against my better judgement
Against my better judgement
Falling behind in a race within my mind
Tripping over hurdles that I put up and that’s why
I placed in second in your life
These online memories, photos at the beach
And all the stories I was told by you
Not easy to forget, I’m right when I suspect
They weren’t simple things that you’ve been through
I buy in, against my better judgement
Against my better judgement