It's not that I don't care
I know its here somewhere
But its more than I can bare to take
I lie awake at night
I never win the fight
Its an addiction I cant shake
Its overbearing me
Growing, flowing, showing
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I surrender, forever
I fold, I played the losing card
I'm under
Its over
I give it up its all too hard
It's not I'm unsure
I've heard it all before
But I cant help wanting more to keep
You just don't understand
The way I really am
Its all I ever can be
But underneath it all
I'm breaking, waking, shaking
Chorus
And now I face it all
I'm falling, crawling, stalling