Carry an illness and practically know it by name.
Seldom speaks for you,you learned to tune it away.
But it wasn't easy
Fond of your writing
I dont need to see into you
You hid behind the similes
Fractal light in all shades of blue pebbles and mirrors
I'm just jealous because I tried mapping out your mind
Inconsistent ways, tangled and untied
I watched your ends start to fray
You felt buried from the start
Tearing you apart,
Constricting the free-beating of your heart
I knew your postcard would say,
"Wish you could stay,wish you felt the same way."
Asked to be admitted,they put a lock on your door
Subdued, medicated, face to linoleum floor
And you tried to break away
Painted window panes, bars behind the glass, molded to the frame
You saw yourself in those days
You felt buried from the start
Tearing you apart,
Constricting the free-beating of your heart.
I knew your postcard would say,
"Wish you could stay,wish you felt the same way."
I am tearing up pieces of old news
To mend the leaks in my open wounds,
Protect your pressure points I refuse to press against
Let your self renew
Project the voice that I found for you
Pull up the weeds,from the ground they grew
Feel soil under your toes,it’s you
You have forever
Felt weaker when I bent, beaten to the end
Folding on myself, too damaged to mend
I couldn't hold all the weight
You felt buried from the start
Tearing you apart,
Injuring yourself dragging from my arm
I knew your postcard would say,
"I know your new heart still desires to play
And who would I be to keep it all for me?"
Wish I could stay, wish I felt the same way.