I'm worth actually striving for,
got sick & tired of games.
If I'm not what is meant to be
then I should do the same;
I shall give up at your 'fuck off.'
And my mouth won't speak your name.
Realize what you have lost;
reciprocate my pain.
I think it's about time for me to gain control;
ease up & if it's meant, just let go.
Fess up baby, what is it that you need?
I wanted to give us another chance.
Now I don't really see.
I wanted you to try & seem like you cared.
I could've met you halfway,
It's never guaranteed you'll be there.
Don't tell me you were longing just like I had all the time.
I'm ill of waking every morning;
vitals pounding like the scene of a crime.
I've got these problems, know it.
I've got these problems, know it.
Break these shackles bare handed;
try to show it.
I've gained myself striving to control this.
My heart has already stopped.
I'll throw the key & hold the lock.
I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath
on our dead anniversary.
So, I'll lay me down;
I'll keep my heart in check.
& I'll rid the final remnants
that almost were a gun straight to my head.
Don't lie to me now & say you never loved me;
Don't deny our hearts could've met up once more.
Don't tell me you're fine then drunken miss me,
I know you truly don't give a fuck anymore.
I remember something from a card that's engraved in my head.
Luckily it's not a blur // I've rewrote our ties in red.
You told me you loved me more than anyone in the world.
We shared so fucking much, your lies are gonna make me hurl.
I've got these problems, know it.
I've got these problems, know it.
Break these shackles bare handed;
try to show it.
I've gained myself striving to control this.
My heart has already stopped.
I'll throw the key & hold the lock.
I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath
on our dead anniversary.
You WERE always in my mind; it didn't matter what you said.
But Up til now I feel it; Your concept of love is DEAD.
Love is but a mere illusion;
fading deep into seclusion.
I'm learning to keep my composure
like getting out of an institution.
I can't help but to stop & think;
why I let you bring me to the brink.
I know I can & will do better
See my knife; the rust is redder.
at least clarify to me why you fucking tried?
Did you really miss me?
or did the booze make you lie?
Then giving up on me; right then and there I died.
You were actually worth every single tear that I cried.
I'm not even gonna lie, I know you truly were the best.
Just my fucking luck;
of course another life test.
It was natures way of getting to me // opening my eyes.
But I can tell you it's still hard for me to look at other guys.
There's now a darker side to me // ark-angel; spread my wings.
Let's see how far your life goes ditching destiny
My heart has already stopped.
I'll throw the key & hold the lock.
I'll resurrect; a fresh new breath
on our dead anniversary.