I don't want to have to defend my medicine,
but I've done dumb deeds time and again.
These demons I meet pull up my number.
I can barely breathe around another.
Case and point:
in the back hall,
I shrink into the wall.
Oh, Chicago I get shy.
Oh, division up to five lines.
Maybe curious kittens eye,
got a cover and kiss goodbye.
Oh, never ever would I ever lie,
or maybe only to try.
So, I said we're let down.
Oh, I used to make sense.
Now I shut up just for sake of stasis.
I'm sedate on such a steady basis.
I keep quiet to up quell the crisis;
light crisis.
It doesn't end,
then days thin.
Drowning in adrenalin.
Lullabies are building.
Alarm bells are nesting.
I cannot remember last night.
I forgot if I made you cry.
I forgot if I said goodbye.
I forgot if you were alive.