I close my eyes, feeling pain, I start writing shit/
I pour my heart out to the mic, feels like I'm talking to a psychiatrist
High as shit, disgusted, man I seem to love it/
I die and go to judgement, couldn't let go of all my grudges
But fuck it, that bullshit with Nemo, it needed to happen/
I got love for BloodShot, cuz they believe in my rappin'
And Reidy still gives me a try, with all the shit since I been signed/
I had 17 addresses, since 2005
Facing time cuz my momma's boyfriend keeps on hurting her/
He got the fist, I get condemned, Lord why am I cursed with hurt?
Wishing mom gave a shit, but it's not a perfect world/
I just hope you find whatever it is you're searching for
I haven't achieved any dreams, I'm not what I planned to be/
My family abandons me, damn, I guess they couldn't handle me
Let me explain Anthony, hip hop and pot helps me keep my sanity/
So I turn it up, roll a blunt, and fuck your bitch under a canopy
My life wouldn't mean a damn if it wasn't for my fam/
My love for them, turned me into "Who I Am"
Catchin' hell from my aunt, the shit we in wasn't my plan/
I wanted to grow up to be a fireman
I wanted to die, tried suicide so many times/
But my sister crying with me, kept me alive
I just want her life to end up better than mine/
No sellin' nics and dimes, just for fish sticks and fries
Committing crimes to get by, I'm not a role model/
And don't stop where I quit, sis, please go further!
Don't be a waitress, get your education, and keep the tip/
Cuz if you don't succeed, your family will treat you like a piece of shit
With all the sins I did, I had to pay the price/
Wouldn't give an arm and a leg, so he took my first child's life
I'm high as a kite, I keep a supply of that kife/
So when my mind isn't right, I just light up and take flight
My life was way much easier when I was a child/
If I could only go back then knowing what I know now
Depression hides behind a smile, 100 proof alcohol/
Everclear, thats how we do in the south, Howdy yall
I'm about to fall into the devil's pit, I feel his clench/
Pop an ox and smoke some pot so I don't have to deal with shit
Real as shit, get a 36 and conceal the shit/
So if I ever see Cornealous, I'll probably kill the bitch
I'm trying to stay afloat with all the holes up in my boat/
Can't cope with being broke and selling dope is all I know
Fuckin with these hoes that start off, "just trust me"/
That really means, "fuck me till you run out of money"
Well at least I got my family, mommy and daddy still love me/
They tell me they're proud of me every day as they hug me
Tell my dad I go to college, studying law/
So he'll take my picture out that box and finally hang it on the wall