Surrender of Divinity - (Tale III) The Apocalyptic Catharsis Тексты

I have always been a lonely traveller
Caring for tomorrow is senseless to me
I am just waiting for my final hour
I believe in misanthropy

My poor life is so empty that
I have become addicted to pain
Enjoying my existence for its cruelty
I feel that I am surrounded by unimportance:
I've seen thousand places and all were loathsome
I can't understand why someone has created life:
I've met hundred people and I killed them all

In my dreams, images show that reality is decomposing:
A Messiah is here and only Death remains....

But suddenly, my head's going round, my sight's growing blurred....
Now I can feel a sweet shiver; weird but strong sensation
I'm on my knees.... The colours are gone, all is black and white....
Now I can hear these human yells I have always dreamed of

I know the next scene too:
Lots of people came, the terror shows in their face
They're running away
Something monstrous appears:
Cerberus the Dog, bringing winged Demons
with him from the path of Hell

Atrocious tortures have begun
The final spectacle starts here

It seems that someone has achieved my wishes!
Weak ones, I've seen your fate but now this is real
Listen to the Armageddon!
It's like a prophecy, which came true thanks to my soul....
Accept the evidence: I've been chosen by Satan!

My conscience is controlling the catastrophe
I shall annihilate this world for the infernal King
These sickening visions of horror purify
my spirit with emotional outbursts
The matter's vanishing:
The death of Earth I require
Ruling the elements
grim orgasms I can reach

But quickly, the silence is back
and the plant is wholly defaced
Images are distorted, agony has won
Forsaken and lost
I wander with only one aim:
To wait for the final disintegration
And I understand
the meaning of my impious life:
To win the war against
life and then to die
I'll suffer until my last breath
For my powers are consuming me
But great is my catharsis
I'll soon join my Lord