I thought in the end i had found a home,
But it was all just an illusion.
I thought this was where i would not be alone,
Instead it plunged me deep into confusion.
I thought there was always something
To condone.
But in the end i saw it would not work out.
I considered those gloomy times to be gone,
But now they were back, so beyond a doubt.
I can feel all the barriers torn down,
And all my thoughts, they feel so light and free.
All the baggage that died with my last frown,
To make way for a second reality.
I can feel so much that has gone away,
With that darkness no more a part of me.
All the things i thought forced me to stay,
Now forgotten with a past reality.
I can feel it die away without sound,
Like a fading image of a past me,
With no place in the freedom i have found,
Living in this second reality.
But i need to leave my place below deck,
So long have i felt it is long past twelve.
When i need to turn and never look back,
To go where i can just be myself.
I know somewhere i skidded off the track,
But i just could not see clearly back then.
I need to leave behind all that slack,
And find out once more who i really am.