I think I'm conscious now
I think I've woken down
Snowlight and starfall
Around my head
I'm getting older
Last chance to make it hurt
Before we hit the ground
Still getting high on the fumes of our youth
Taking over
I think I'm dreaming wide
Thoughts scattered through the prism
But through my eagle eye
I still see you there as you were
A million miles high
Lights from the cataclysm
Still washing down over us
I'm finally conscientious
Still picking apart
Every piece of the game
Within this
From start to finish
My heart dependent
The part where sunshine days are endless
Winter forever
Frostbitten trees
A solitary letter
From the days I used to dream
In this maze where I gaze laid back
Thinking about
All of those thoughts of Spring
The wetness is blinding
Cold cuts through me
These chills are binding
Heart in a trapdoor lay silent
Moments pass by
Like acts of violence
Bodily pressures
Shut my eyelids
Define the divine
Insight of this lightness
Take a deep breath
I inhale the silence
The feeling of being small's hard
And any man's tiny
Backdropped by the stars
Not to say that you put here
All the things that we went through
Shook my fear
A man I became
Through standards the same
I entered the period
Of handling things
But those pauses are blatant
Your face made a statement
I spent time dealing in my basement
Been alone for awhile
Not a child
But fight every day
With these stresses and trials piled up
Along the walk that I'm headed on
Regretting nothing
But the day I first stepped upon
And this all started somewhere
And I swear to God I don't think it's fun there
I was done there
The feeling of numb where
I had to ask for help
But I've only prayed one prayer
Thought to myself
About this pain on pages
My brain enrages
Insane and faithless
Yo, time is not an entity
And the day I moved on
I told you
Never ever mention me
Eventually this winter will pass
And I'll solve this mystery
Laid in the grass
Til the feeling of warmth
Hope's all I ask
But this pit's been bottomless
Yo
And these days get colder
Like the end of autumn gets
And the struggle that
I've had to be honest with
Myself and the list of broken promises
I'm trying but the past keeps coming back
Yo. fairy tale endings
But the beginning is where I fucked up bad
And I can't say I'm sorry
So I spend time reflecting
Let the stars talk for me
Let the sky breathe for me
And my eyes close slowly
It was almost morning
It was almost morning