Lets think back, on all those times we had
The times we laughed and times we cried
Trying to sort out our lives
My life didnt go according to plan
I sold my soul to the devil, but he took my money and ran
From what I hear, youre doing well
As if by that fancy car outside, I couldnt tell
Whats his name? Whats he do?
Do you love him? Like I loved you?
Are you happy? Or playing hide and seek
When youre alone, do the tears find your cheek?
No, I didnt mean to pry, just wanted to see how you were doing
And after 15 years, it seems that Im the one losing, again
Just so you know
My days are filled with pain
And my life, every day I live, is filled with regret
To think I could walk out, on the only thing I had left
And my nights are filled with disdain
I got every single letter
But didnt have the heart to write back
Not that I couldnt find a pen, just the words, they lacked
Because nothing could justify what I did
How I walked out on you, and walked out on the kids
Every day I wish I could turn back time
So I could have something to lose, something to call mine
But I dont deserve to be living, to be on this ground Im walking on
Didnt even give a reason, opened the door and said Im gone
Id never claim to be perfect, god knows Im not even close
When I die, those pearly gates, theyll remain closed
And all the things I said and did to you, and every one else
Its time I look you in the eye, and tell you I blame myself
Tell you Im sorry that I chose this way to live
That you deserve so much better, but thats something I could never give
Ive made a life, out of hurting everyone close to me
Cheers to you, Im glad youre happy
Just so you know
My days are filled with pain
And my life, every day I live, is filled with regret
To think I could walk out, on the only thing I had left
And my nights are filled with disdain
No, I dont think that you could ever understand
I deserve to be, exactly where I am
At the bottom of this hole, that Ive been digging for too long
Dont cry now baby, you wont miss me when Im gone