Thinking out loud
My conscience is speaking
It calls to me, in a distant voice
I'm finally listening
It's finally time
To see the writing on the wall
I can't define
The guilt you know I feel it all
I'm forced to see now
What I couldn't feel then
The connection that I can't ever mend
Shadows they move towards the light
I feel acceptance in my grasp
The realization that I can't deny or fight
That the pain had always masked
Facing my true reflection
In a mirror that holds the key
It's time to give up on blaming you
And stare into my own two eyes
And blame me
I tried so hard
To push the blame into your lap
I played the card
The ace that set up the final trap
The bitterness that suffocates me
I feel it burning inside
Facing my true reflection
In a mirror that holds the key
It's time to give up on blaming you
And stare into my own two eyes
And blame me
Holding on
Holding you
Holding this when everything
Turned out wrong
Holding back
Holding me
From ever being free