You Got to Change
(feat. Ryan Hollander)
by: M. R. Thompson
(M. R. Thompson)
Percocet killed my unborn child.
Fetus without a gender.
Thanks for giving my former flag-bearer welfare.
Feed us food. Not stamps to trade vendors.
I use to sell drugs.
Hey, every town has a pharmacy.
Friends do it. Rappers too. -
It's all I see.
Now I think while my Blues attack,
Did those 'blues' come back? Is karma after me?
(Ryan Hollander)
You!
You got to change, daddy!
You have to change!
You got to change, daddy!
You got to change, you!
You have to change, daddy!
Please, daddy.
Please, daddy.
Can't run away!
You got to stay!
You got too change!
You got to change, you!
(M. R. Thompson)
If only I could turn back time.
I would have fallen in-love with myself instead.
So my opportunity at fatherhood wouldn't be Rick Grimes.
The Walking Dead.
Imbalanced like a cunt-joined twin.
Two thoughts trying to move one me.
Life has become a merit thon that I cannot win.
Uncool, but not hot, merely -
P.T.S.D.
To friends I'm a flashback.
Pissed that people think I want pity.
All I want is my past back.
Not the moments
Just the hope that I felt.
When every word spoke
A championship belt!
Shouts!
So loud they inspired
When popped wheels didn't quit
They retired.
Without the retiring
Just the rewiring
When I looked through eyes
That kept the fire in.
Before ex-wives and nervous breaks
When Tourettes didn't feel like a sin
Before I stepped out the shower soaked in tears
Where I left myself drenched and threw the towel in.
It's not a metaphor
What the hell had I met her for?
I was finally living life again and an others addiction
Made my life and my childs abort
Fuck You!
Now I only unwrap words
So too only impregnate minds
At least words I can take back
I love you. Those words are mine
30 mil.
Grams. Not Bills.
Pills.
So Small. So Still.
It's the little things in life.
It's the blood that spills.
I guess the people that I helped
Didn't make up for the ones I killed.
I Killed.
I killed.
(Ryan Hollander)
Why did you want to kill me!?!
You got to change, daddy!
You have to change!
You got to change, daddy!
You got to change, you!
You have to change, daddy!
Please, daddy.
Why 'O why
Why did you come to me
Why in the morning
Why in the evening
Why 'O why
Why did you have to love me
Alive left in mourning
Why did you want to kill me!
You Got
You Got
You Got to Change You!
My love the sky is falling
The tears are running down
From your eyes they are balling
Hush Dead. I'm here now.
(M. R. Thompson)
Flat lines are only clich until they happen
We all live forever until we don't
Life only sucks until its gone
I wished her death until I found her note
Tears dryer than a laundromat
How much can a hollow-cost?
My bloodline popped out
And become extinct
My baby's footprint hit the earth
And became a foss-
Ill... sick.
They use to call me itching.
Scratching like a D. J.
Offbeat. Twtching.
I use to discount
Like I hated math
If you were worth your salt
I would find that bath.
Perc... up
and ...set
With my son as he fades
Shit.
You begged like a bum.
Hand out for some change.
I left like a southpaw.
You cried my name.
I came on back.
Porn star. Pulling out doggy.
Caught pants down.
But the dick was all me.
Choices.
I trusted U.
But I only got half.
The W.
I wish I may
I wished I did
Make that wish
I'm sorry kid.
I'm sorry
(Ryan Hollander)
Why 'O why
Why did you come to me
Why in the morning
Why in the evening
Why 'O why
Why did you have to love me
Alive left in mourning
Why did you want to kill me!
Why 'O why
Why did you come to me
Why in the morning
Why in the evening
Why 'O why
Why did you have to love me
Alive left in mourning
Why did you want to kill me!