Let's get fucked up and die
I'm speaking figuratively, of course
Like the last time that I committed suicide
Social suicide
Yeah, so I'm already dead
On the inside but I can still pretend
With my memories and photographs
I've learned to love the lie
I wanna know what it's like to be awkward
And innocent, not belligerent
I wanna know how it feels to be useful
And pertinent and have common sense, yeah
Let me in, let me into the club
'Cause I wanna belong
And I need to get strong and if memory serves
I'm addicted to words and they're useless
In this department
Let's get fucked up and die
I'm riding hard on the last legs of every lie
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode
I'm about to explode
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck
I am perfect and I have learned to accept
All my problems and short comings
'Cause I am so visceral, yet deeply inept
I want to thank you for being a part of my
The forget-me-nots and marigolds
And all the things that don't get old
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know
It's the only way I have learned
To express myself
To other peoples' descriptions of life
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless
In this department
Let's get fucked up and die
For the last time I'm feeling, we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily
Into the nights, thats no shocking surprise
I believe that I can
Overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being
Maybe I'll win but for now I've decided to die
Sister soldier, you've been such
A positive influence on my mental frame
If I could ever repay you, I would
But I'm hard up for cash and my memory lacks initiative
Goddamn, the liquor stores' closed
We were so close to scoring
It hurts, it destroys til it kills
I am tired and hungry and totally useless