Thirteen when i started, cold hearted and curious
To the streets, gotta eat, where every part is serious
Holding guns for reasons, believing it was the thug in me
All about the love, till the the slugs hit me
Dont wanna die so i open my eyes
Chokin on air, gaspin hopin im alive
Chalk my sneakers, shit even chalk my hat
Is this the path to the pearly gates? im walkin back
Why it had to be me lord, when they sprayed this bitch
I aint ask for this life, i was gave this shit
Is it wrong packin my heat, when i aint raised and shit
Im tired, on my tombstone engrave the shit
We all gotta eat, ill die if u take this from me
Im hungry, so i ride trying to make this money
If thats a sin, then fuck it, ima die with stripes
But touch me lord and keep me in ur eyes tonight
Hook repeat 2x: fatal
Call my kids, but they dont walk back to me
Talk 2 my dogs and they dont talk back to me
Tried 2 hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn i think im dead yall, i might be dead yall
Verse 2: fatal
I wake up in the hospital, codeined out
Iv's in vains like im cokefiend out
Im outside of my body, i see myself
But i cant talk to nobody or be myself
I feel nothin but tears from my mothers cheek
Droppin on my arm when she tellin my lil brother im asleep
I try to feel her and touch her, but it just not real
Will it suprise my pops when they say i just got killed
Shed some light on me lord, let it ease the pain
Put somethin in my heart, let me breathe again
Cuz its just the lil tiny kids who need hussein
And i aint playin no more, i aint playin the game
Its time to pull ur pants up, fight the war of life
U got a lost soul, then give urs to christ
Cuz ima take mine and do it surly right
Give me my soul back please, let me enjoy my life
Hook repeat 2x: fatal
Call my kids, but they dont walk back to me
Talk 2 my dogs and they dont talk back to me
Tried 2 hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn i think im dead yall, i might be dead yall
Verse 3: fatal
These bastards done hit me off, im in a casket
They just did surgery
Im watchin how the murderd me
My lil brother thing ima pull through
And grandma i knew, u know aint no way i could fool u
My daughter aint got no fears
Now she can see me clear
Trying to tough me, her mama think she fuckin with her tears
Just when u look back it was a memory
I dont watch yall to mourn, jus remeber me
Im putting it down hard, legall or illegally
Nigga got get his chips either way, dont grieve for me
Ugh, caught up with me, hit me
Praying to god so the demons wont come and get me
Fold my arms i dont love this life
Aint no slippin when u thug 4 life
Fold my arms i dont love this life
Aint no slippin when u thug 4 life
Hook repeat 2x: fatal
Call my kids, but they dont walk back to me
Talk 2 my dogs and they dont talk back to me
Tried 2 hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn i think im dead yall, i might be dead yall