Bury my feelings and freeze the present.
To leave this existence, to leave this world.
To perpetuate my distance without the fear that rewards, the illusory lucidity.
Keep the eyes closed and what was concient lived,
to flagellate and feed me. Succumb and grow on, despising the new pain, to get back my own faith, to get back my innocence.
To moralize my essence, to forgive me.