Ecstasy Of Saint Theresa - I´m (Not Really) Optimistic Lyrics

I'm (not really) optimistic
I'm not really in the mood for that these days
Not so sure I can fix it
Can hardly say what I feel

I'm (not really) optimistic
Tune, pulse, gesture, in a fade
Not so sure I'll miss it
Can hardly say what is real

I think I lost it
Lost my head
Nothing is wanted
Instead