Cosmo Jarvis - Is The World Strange Or Am I Strange? Lyrics

Is the world strange or am i strange?
Is the world strange or am i?
Is the world mean or am i mean?
Guess i won't know 'til i die.

Everyone i know,
I don't wanna see you anymore.
I don't even know what i know you for.
All i know is that you made me feel abnormal
In mostly all ways,
All day, asked kids when we play
And i still felt that i had to try to be okay with you.
And truly
I wanted you to like me,
Not spite me
Without explanation uprightly,
But even as a kid,
My heart's what i hid
Because something about it and this planet don't fit.
I could never build relationships the way you did
So you were only friends with what i pretended.
Every day,
Every minute,
And now i'm stuck so far in it.
This game will mean death for me if i don't win it.

I'm a coward,
A deserter,
An anonymous flirter.
I had me a woman but my bullshit just hurt her.
Very much the same, when i was at school,
Felt like i was from a joke gene pool,
Created to be confused.
Should never have to choose
Between what i am,
And what the world understands,
But if i never did i would be more isolated.
Oh sure i'd be hated,
So it's way better if i fake it.
Fake me,
Fake these words.
I'm sick of polishing this turd for this proud little planet,
That can't understand it.
But really, it's clearly my fucked mind that's had it.

I tried,
Don't know why,
But myself was no help.
People saw shit inside me
It's clear they felt it wasn't their job to comprehend,
So i began learning them,
To spare them the expense
I began my descent to the future.
Time here's not like when you're eight.
It's real like mistakes i just realised i made,
Like thinking people are worth having to suffer
Painting over yourself in their favourite colour.
Or maybe i'm just a clock with no real face,
Who tried to tick tock but could not find a pace.

Is the world strange or am i strange?
Is the world strange or am i?
Is the world mean or am i mean?
Guess i won't know 'til i die.
Is the world dead or am i dead?
Is the world dead or am i?
Is the world fucked or am i fucked?
Guess i won't know 'til i die.

And i wished you would be harsh to me
And explain to my face every fault you could see.
Instead you were silent,
Yes you let me be,
To continue the search for what mask you could treat
Like a motherfucking
Normal human being.
Other kids in your club didn't have masks to bring.
They didn't act different
And that was sufficient
For them to receive all of your trust that i didn't.

That's why i can't care now about you lot,
'cause from the beginning
You never said 'get lost!'
You never said 'fuck off cos!
Take that prick mask off!
We as a world have decided you're just not what
We're looking for in a long term acquaintance.
We don't like hearing your emotionless statements
And your i-can't-play-ball-with-the-world conversations.
Kill yourself now
So in the future we're free
From your songs about fucked up personality'.

I always prayed that you would punch me in the face
And shout 'you are a waste of space
Get out, my family say you can't come round'.
Wanted everyone more than they ever wanted me
I worked for them,
Worked for their company,
Because it wasn't really me they befriended,
Extended friendly courtesy.
It was whatever mask i wore
That applied to their sort.
That applied to them so much
They answered the door
When i knocked after school
With my trusty skateboard.

And i'm paying for it now
I'm a rain-filled cloud
That can't drop the huge storm it allowed
To build up inside it,
No not a single drip.
I can never get rid of what makes me a dick.
I say: 'sorry,
But it's not my fault i exist',
So just kiss my ass people,
I'm glad you won't miss me when i'm gone,
I don't wanna be in your history.
It's just best to forget me
Even if you liked me
You still never met me.

Is the world strange or am i strange?
Is the world strange or am i?
Is the world mean or am i mean?
Guess i won't know 'til i die.
Is the world dead or am i dead?
Is the world dead or am i?
Is the world fucked or am i fucked?
Guess i won't know 'til i die.

Is the world strange or am i strange?
Is the world strange or am i?
(why is the world so strange?)
Is the world mean or am i mean?
Guess i won't know 'til i die.
(guess i'll never know)
Is the world dead or am i dead?
Is the world dead or am i?
(why am i so dead?)
Is the world fucked or am i fucked?
Guess i won't know 'til i die.
(guess i'll never know)