When I was just ten years old
My mother put me in a school near our home
I felt so weird
I couldn't breath
Always wound up in tears
I got sick everyday
I would hide in the bathroom
I didn't want to play soccer with all the baboons
I wanted to die
I wanted to die
And nobody did care
Then I fell in love with the prettiest girl
Everyone loved her but I loved her most
Oh I loved her so
I wanted to die
She didn't know my name
Her name was Maryanne
I drew her a picture of myself in the rain
She said it was cute
Then asked me my name
I told her my name
It was the best fucking the day
Then I saw her kissing
A fourteen year old boy
I could not believe God would do that to me
I rushed to the bathroom
I couldn't be free
Why always with me?
I read poetry
I didn't know shit
Guess I fell in love
About three times after that
And each time I do
It gets worse than the last
But no one's to blame
It's God's lonely game
I love being in love