(Tupac as Bishop from the film, "Juice")
You know what, when you said that last time, I was kinda trippin right?
But now, your right. I am crazy…..But you know what else? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
(Killa K)
Honestly, I aint awkward at all,
I just like to sit alone and talk to the wall,
Feel like dudes scheming, feel like Im dreaming
I don't even feel like a human being
Got screws loose and Im close to the edge,
I think someones holdin a gun to my head,
And just when they about to pull the trigger,
I turn around and see myself lookin in the mirror,
I don't really know what it is with me,
But whatever it is unseen visibly,
I mean, all I wanna do is chill with P,
Or maybe a girl, that would keep it real with me,
But that kind of chic is gettin hard to find,
And as a diamond in the dirt its gettin hard to shine,
As far as beef goes Im my own worse enemy,
So if you're my friend, then your friends with my enemy!
And that's why people think Im crazy,
My boys is "Bizzare" so they think Im "Shady",
Im only tryna do what they say that I do best,
I cant make a love song, cuz Im too stressed,
I mean I got the means but "Hows" the question,
Sufferin anxiety and mild depression,
Sick flow, but no, I aint no schizo,
Gemini, two sides, that's how shit goes
on the rap tip you only hearin half
that's why I say im like "50" can you do the math?
Got money on mind, Im pursuin cash,
Had "transparent" friends and saw through the "glass"
See I spit that real shit that people relate to,
Still Im like "Mary J" just tryna "Breakthrough",
Funny you a nobody, nobody hates you,
But the second that your names out they all try to break you!
That's why I move like a prison escapist,
Fuck "touchin" dollars, I act like a "rapist"
Im in this, so I gotta handle my business,
Just hear this track understand you a witness,
When I spit this, it aint about change,
Its somethin that can sometimes ease the pain,
Understand I wont be an MC slained,
Before they come for me I'll pull a Kurt Cobain!