My mood is not mellow my heart is not fine
My soul is at a point that it doesn't even shine
No one can avail my nerves are only emphasized
By all the stress in life just trna get recognized
Talking bout a mirical I'm only going lyrical
You notice my subliminals you didn't even hear it good
I know that I'm good I know how to rhyme
But sometimes I just wonder if I'm wasting all my time
Who the hell is here for when I need my motivation
Every situation handled well is causing accusations
Blaming me for everything I love this fucking dopamine
I had to give it all for me to reach out anything
I know I'm on my own been doing all myself
Life is always meager no one really helps
I'll impel myself moving forward but I can't
Cause in every finished song I'll always be pant
I'm immune to stressing and mostly all the pain
Thinking about the downside falls in this game
Take a look at all misrule's that's a fascicle's
Cause aside of loosing that's an honest fact too
Hate is everywhere and you makin love minuscule
Regretting all the time wasted back in middle-school
Trust me if I had a choice I'd leave this fucking ridicule
I didn't know this life had to be so fucking difficult
My mind is delocated but my heart is straight up aggravated
I'll speak the truth I'm tired of all your hating
I'm drunk enough to say it I joined his other naught's
There it goes I ain't playing here curse my human body
The shit is just delaying epistra I'm really sorry
For doing it but fame is barely getting started
It made me what I am today a rapper so cold hearted
That is why it's fucked man why did shit departed
what happened to all the ladies the worlds full of sluts and babies
Now about em' all cause some are just amazing
Starting with the Asian the one that drove me crazy
Think about her mother cause she's the one that's raising
Years are passing bye you left me a special memory
From losing all your trust and only tryna envy me
I ain't taking back remorse you can throw your sympathies
Because you fucked me over through the mind and viciously
If you here to battle me we speaking differently
This music industry is fucking afterlife and dignity
Every dream I'm having it's becoming reality
I busted both my nuts to hold this treasury
Not have enough to say so listen carefully
Music is my weapon so don't plan to be my enemy
I wanna live a life with respect so perfectly
To have it all I gotta burn in hell eternity