All I really wanted was this home
A place to get away from all the cold
I think I'm okay now, much more aware
My body is failing, getting slowly there
And we choose to remember, always the same place
Can we move on past the outpost?
We thought that each other was all we would need
We thought that each other was all we'd need
Well, I had a technicolor father with mechanical parts and an on and off heart switch
And he snapped all our plugs, dragged them out through the doorway like electrical entrails
As they dangled behind him, intestinal, worm-like, I grabbed one and sank in my teeth
It showed no signs of life
As static as a starscape that pulses when the channel is missing and signal is lost
Only to be seen at night, in dreams and lucent skies
And yes, we have found out cause it's only fair
You've withheld the words of affection from when I cared
Now it's too late to mend us
We start to deteriorate but we can always remember; we would not have been the same
If you had stayed nearby, would I have grown up in your image?
If so, then it's good that you left
They say "like father, like son."
Is that the reason that I constantly feel like I don't exist?
I lost my fallen teeth to the bottom of the pillow
I lost all my sleep on Christmas Eve
And I'd do it all over for the little optimism that I harbored before you taught me to never believe
I just can't stand to see the same old walls
Try to leave me all alone
I don't want to see you at all
I can't help it. I'm bottling everything up
You promised you would deliver me
You promised you'd keep me safe and sound
Father, the day you die I hope you die in a living room
I hope the irony does not let you laugh
I hope the life that flashes before your eyes is mine and it doesn't flash fast
If you had stayed nearby, would you have taught me to vanish?
If so, then it's all for the best
They say "like father, like son."
Is that the reason that every time a person loves me I find it hard to love them back?