You tell me what will become of us?
Are the lines so drawn and the stage so set,
That as we age what reamins is burdened sufferance?
My mortality looms in its visage is doom,
And it's speaking to me alone.
The years will unfold but what is the use?
In solitude I'm left to atone.
The sins of my past are returning to gnaw at my core,
The scars I have left and those that have been left on me.
My purpose in life, is it unfair to assume I have one?
I'm not fooling myself, what now awaits is a nightmarish end.
What I'm saying, do you understand?
Do you know what it's like to feel inadequate?
And the future ahead has no place for you,
As if you ever thought it did...
Alone in my shell, if I come out I'll die,
I don't want to escape though I should.
No, just leave me alone, *I don't want your help!!! *
Yeah, if you could ease my pain you would... (right!)
No, you don't even know me!
And your words of comfort fall upon deaf and frightened ears,
I lament my bitter fate, lachrymation upon examining my fears.
I've built a fortress around my soul, impregnable the door,
I refuse to admit you to my netherworld.
You're correct, I've absolved my self-control,
This spiraled course depression has me on.
AGONY!
I'M A STUDY IN DESPAIR, DOMINEERED BY THE PROMISE OF AGONY!
AND THE HAPPINESS IS BOUND, AND THE HOPELESSNESS IS FOUND.
I'M IN AGONY!!!
CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND, DESPONDENCY COMMANDS MY AGONY!
and I'm waiting to die alone...
As I'm drowning in a sea of abused visions and shattered dreams,
A chilling descent into a phobic hell,
Insanity's blade performs it's correctional surgery.
Impending doom in this blackened room, I can give this all away.
It's all so easy to capitulate, Nothing is making me stay...
Retreating within and hiding behind my wall.
Dealing without, there's no escape from this moribund state.
Awaiting deep sleep, we don't care if I don't wake.
In darkness' hands though terrified, I feel safe.
I don't fit into the scheme of things!
These years as an outcast are quickly wearing thin.
My carefree days are a thing of the past,
And I welcome the fact that I'm coming to an end.
Melancholy, my bride, I devote unto thee,
My, breath, my mind and my soul.
As silence washes over me, I've never been so tired, so cold...
Confusion seizes unto me,
Manacled and beaten, chained up by it's frozen vice.
This is killing me, but my mind is set, and I'm too weak to fight.
Have you any idea what it's like to want to die?
Then you will know from where I speak.
This winter in my soul,
This winter in my soul...
AGONY!
I'M A STUDY IN DESPAIR, DOMINEERED BY THE PROMISE OF AGONY!
AND THE HAPPINESS IS BOUND, AND THE HOPELESSNESS IS FOUND.
I'M IN AGONY!!!
CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND, DESPONDENCY COMMANDS MY AGONY!
and I want to be left alone...
Yet again, I have no answers,
The confusion of my fate takes it's toll.
Symbolically speaking, what's another life
That lists "ending itself" as its one and only goal?
I've examined my options and I see nothing in my sight,
Is there an avenue I've yet to explore?
As of now, I'm decided I have nothing to live for...
Defeated, alone, yet you laugh at the state I'm in!
I can't help what I am, but you think this is all in my head.
I'm not asking for help, but I want you to understand,
That I'm going away, you guess if I'm coming back.
You wish I had a will to live?
This condition I'm in didn't happen overnight.
I've hated myself for an eternity,
Now I finally feel that I'm doing something right.
As darkness descends I behold the Candlemass,
I seek intimacy with death.
Again, you're correct, these feelings will pass,
When my memory is all you have left.
My life has metamorphosed,
Into a marriage of the twisted and macabre.
I'm sitting here now feeling the effects of my words,
Trying to see a reason why I should go on.
I have to wonder, do I still believe in God?
'Cause God no longer believes in me.
I lay myself down for my final peace,
I welcome Death, my spirit is free...
AGONY!
I'M A STUDY IN DESPAIR, DOMINEERED BY THE PROMISE OF AGONY!
AND THE HAPPINESS IS BOUND, AND THE HOPELESSNESS IS FOUND.
I'M IN AGONY!!!
CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND, DESPONDENCY COMMANDS MY AGONY!
and I'm pleading to die alone...