I was five and he was six
We always had the freshest kicks
He wore red and I wore blue
Know many but trust a few
Bang bang, he shot him down
Bang bang, he hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, my brother was shot down
I miss you, Ryan
I hope you resting in peace
This one's for you
Really all this shit for you
Wondering why I'm breathing
Don't really have much to believe in
Damn, gotta stop talking crazy
What's gotten into me lately?
Now I'm wondering where I'll be
I looked in the mirror
Don't quite know what I see
Now I wake up with hesitation
Still wishing heaven had a visitation
Gotta get away turn off my phone
Maybe I was meant to be alone
Take another shot of the Patrón
And I'm gone, gone
I can hear the gunshot in my head
I sleep with the darkness in my bed
I'm not the same and I'll never be, no
I can see the light shine from the moon
But I still feel the darkness in my room
I'm not the same and I'll never be, no
Wondering where the time went
Now I'm wondering where my mind went
I swear yesterday I was on ten
And now I'm wondering where my nine went
3am blowing up my phone
He was left bleeding all alone
Had to tell my parents on my own
On my own, own
Woken up out of my sleep
Another faded night at the spot
Had a bunch of missed calls and some missed texts
Saying "yo brother was shot"
I'm like "tell me that he's still breathing"
"You don't know nobody that stayed?"
He like "everybody took off running"
"And all I know is that it happened at The Palisades"
"And I heard it was the football team"
It was gunshots and blood shed
JSU never called my parents
To tell em that their son was dead
Man I fought for you like crazy
But I screamed when your casket went down the grave
And they say that life goes on but
Fuck that, I'll never flip the page
And I swear I'll never forget you
Man I just wanna be with you
And why couldn't they take me and not you
I wish God would tell me he meant to
He was gone too soon
Why they stop his shine, why they stop his shine
They say time heals pain
Guess I need more time, guess I need more time
Man them bitch niggas jumped my brother
And I still remember they names
And I got plans of fucking revenge
Shit I might be fucking insane
Man I just miss my brother
You don't even know the half of what I been through
What's the phone number to heaven?
I swear I'd pay my last to get through
Wondering where the time went
Now I'm wondering where my mind went
I swear yesterday I was on ten
And now I'm wondering where my nine went